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I’m not sure where or when this saying came to be but I hear it all the time from the people around me.


It’s been a turbulent year. It passed in a flash and it left me hardly standing. The people I spoke with described this year very similarly. It’s been a year full of crazy and calm, new and old, crazy adventures and laming silences.


And in all that, people say that there could be pleasure?


I’m not certain about it but assuming that life only gets crazier as you go on, maybe there is some truth to it. Or better, make there be truth to it. What will this life be after all, if all you do is worry.


So that will be my new thing in 2019: Stop and smell the roses.


Happy New Year to you All!


Thomas

  • Thomas Zoeschg

Anybody else suffering from this disease?


This is NOT the wrap up post for this year but this has been quite an intense year with many changes and happenings. In all this I found myself being challenged in many different external ways and I wouldn’t want it any other way!


That said, one of my biggest challenges that came through in all this, is actually within myself. It’s this idea that before I take action, I must think it through. Really well. Like into all the details. And into all the possible outcomes. And into all the worst case scenarios!


It’s crippling. You can’t get anything done because you get stuck on this track. It’s the worst, especially if you just discovered how much you can actually get done in your life and how efficient you can be with your time.


So I started thinking this morning, where does this come from? Here are a few things that come to mind:

(A) Self Doubt

(B) Fear of Failure

(C) Too much on my plate / Too many projects at once


The truth is most likely a combination of all these. But the fact remains that this shit is really slowing you down.


From all the decisions that needed to be made this year, it was tough with a lot of them. It was tough getting over myself and it still continues. I got a lot done but I’m carrying an equal amount of shit with me, most likely into the new year.


There must be a way to train myself better. To find a better mix between acting on your impulses and reason?


If anybody knows, tell me! Or let’s get coffee and brainstorm together while making yet another to do list…


Anyways, have a great weekend!


Thomas

  • Thomas Zoeschg

PULP FICTION by Quentin Tarantino

This will be a quick one - I just wanted to note down one really and truly fond memory that got me started on my path as a filmmaker:


Rewind many, many years, to the year 1996 (I did the math) to a small town in the Italian Alps, where a young boy had just discovered that this very small town had transformed one of the multi purpose rooms in the town hall, into a library. Most importantly though, it featured VHS tapes!


I hurried over to my buddies house and rang the bell, as you did back then. Shortly after we stormed the new library and the rumors were true! In the back, me and my buddy, came across one bookshelf filled with VHS tapes. It was like Christmas!


We pulled a whole bunch of them, as many as we could carry! At the check out, the lady denied us the fun though, she noted that we could only get one at a time but she would allow us two.


So back we went to the shelves. We laid them all out in front of us and began sorting through them. We had never been faced with such a difficult choice in our lives.


Finally we settled on the following, Pulp Fiction by Quentin Tarantino and a horror flick from which I only remember one specific scene: The lead actress took a bath in this old school bathtub and all of a sudden, out of nowhere, hands appeared, grabbed her, and pulled her inter water to drown her. The tag line of the film was, in fact, “You’ll never look at your bathtub the same way” - they got that right!


But back to it, bringing the movies up to the counter was not as smooth as we had thought. The librarian was not amused at all, looking at our film selection, she did not think that this was a good assortment for such young boys! Let me tell you, it took a lot of convincing from our ends and there was nobody else there who needed her attention, she had all the time in the world to argue with us!


Long story short, we got the films, ran home to my place and began watching what, to date, would be one of the most thrilling and exciting movie watching experiences.

Pulp Fiction is one of those movies that just goes under your skin. It’s so good, it’s almost not real. And believe me, I had no idea what was going on with the time cuts and non-linear story telling in that movie, at the time. I could not comprehend what was going on, all I can tell you is that I thought it was absolutely amazing!


Weeks would go by and my buddy and I would still be talking about that film. What an experience.


But most importantly, that was the first moment, in that diner scene, when Pumpkin and Honey Bunny plan their robbery, that I thought to myself, “I wish I could do that.”


You might not be a fan of Mr. Tarantino and his work but he is a craftsman like very few of them. As I thought to myself then, “I wish I could do that”, the same thing keeps running through my brain today as a filmmaker, just in a different context.


Oh, and if anybody knows that horror flick that I was talking about, let me know! I might rewatch it!


All my best,

Thomas


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